Tying Up Loose Ends
Tying up loose ends can cover a lot of ground. A year ago, next month, I received my Agent Orange Compensation from the government. I tried to use it wisely but did make a few frivolous purchases. We signed some of our property over to our daughter, got our Wills done, put a new well in on our property so we are independent of the property we gave our daughter. We also did all the legal paperwork involved and had surveys done. Things we could not afford to do on our day to day income. Oh, Yes I bought a new car for me. Then it was back to living month to month. The difference is I have money to finish some projects that I had started a long time ago, like a new garage and a greenhouse.
This week I had the pleasure of planning my own funeral. My Dad did it and his Dad, my youngest daughter Glenda did it, and now I have. It is not that I am worried about dying. In fact on that count I truly believe I will be standing here on the earth when the Lord returns in power and glory. So why plan for something that is not going to happen. It is the thing we were commanded in the Bible to do. We are to live like we will be here forever, but be ready to go at any moment.
My reason for believing I will be here is based on a vision/dream I had in January of 1967. The link I put in will take you to the story if you are interested. It is a testimony of how I came to follow the Lord after running from him for some time. It is also the first entry of a seven part book I posted for free on my blog. There is too much of me in the book, but it also explains how some things happen the same way several times in the Old Testament and that “I believe” we are in a similar time in this day and age.
It is not my goal to make anyone think I am any kind of Bible scholar, but simply to share some things I learned from spending a lot of time in the Bible. As I said I ran from the Lord for years. When I got as low as I could go and had no way to look but up I told the Lord, “I don’t even have a job Lord, but I do have the days of my life that you Bless me with and as I have nothing else to give you, I will tithe my time in your Word.” For the next several years I spent at least 2 ½ hours a day in the Word of God. When I had no job it was easy. When I got one it got harder, but I still did it for a few more years. Then I started to cut back and read most days, but not the way I had. The Lord has truly blessed my life and taken care of me. If he hadn’t I would have been gone just over ten years ago when I had a fairly major heart attack. That story is also in my book. Again I give a link so you can see how intervened in my behalf at that time. Just scroll down the story till you come to the header titled Testimony.
If you read the testimony you will note I said that I was talking to an individual about the Bible. I always wondered if I would know that individual when I met him. Just this week I came to the realization that I may have done so. For some time I have felt I knew or know the exact place I will be standing when it happens, and now possibly who I will be with. This last week has had a couple of experiences that made me wonder if God is giving me signs.
It is my privilege to share a room with my fifteen year old great nephew, whom I call my grandson. In essence he is one. At least he is to me. His name is Gabriel. On my way back from my annual trip to a Christian Writer’s Conference which is a blessing to me. Especially the way I found it. I had Gabe’s name embossed on the Bible, which I got for him on the trip, a few days ago. He asked me where his name was in the Bible and I got out my concordance and that I is when I realized there might be more to him being here than me just helping out my niece.
Gabriel was the Angel who told Zacharias that he was to have a son named John who would be the forerunner of the Messiah. Gabriel also told Mary she would bear a child unto the Lord. Then he also gave Daniel the prophecy of the seventy weeks for the end time. My oldest grandson just happens to be named Daniel. Coincidence I am sure. Gabe has been trying to encourage me to go walking every day. The catch is if we do, we will cross that place that I believe to be where I will be at the end both coming and going.
As I said I had a heart attack several years ago. I had lost 90 pounds at the time I had it. The reason I was trying to lose so much weight was I wanted to get back into skydiving which I did when was younger. I did it twelve years in the military with no problems. My very first civilian jump I compressed my back. Over time I think my back has healed enough but only if I lose enough weight. The first time I started down at 350 and got down to 260. My goal was 200. Well over the years I found some of those pounds and got back up to 300. Now I want to jump again. My doctor gave me the okay. I thought I couldn’t with a defibrillator, but he said it was no problem. I discovered that on my trip to Florida in February. That story is on my blog also.
Thursday I plan to leave to go to Ottawa, Illinois to watch the U.S. National Parachuting Championships. From my first experience with losing weight I learned that to lose the weight, diet alone will not do it. I have to walk 45 minutes a day. That takes discipline and Gabe is willing to do it with me. The question for me is am I ready to meet my maker. I believe I am. Getting back into reading the Bible has been a big help in getting to that point. I am to a point I have that inner peace in my life that I had in that vision. So I am ready and all I have to do is do it.
There were a couple of other experiences this week that sort of gave me a Déjà vu feeling. In preparation for my trip I had some patches sewn on an old cut off denim duster I had. The seamstress I got sent to was an older lady, a Christian and she writes Bible studies. My Mom was a seamstress and made wedding gowns and did alterations for the local dry cleaners and J.C. Penny’s. Early in her sewing career she made aprons. Her and I use to go to diners and truck stops and sell the aprons to the waitresses. When she passed away and I was going through her stuff I did not keep much. The one thing that did touch me and I kept was her apron patterns. She had bunches and bunches of them. Now they are mine. The lady I went to see was making an apron when I got there. She said she was kind of winging it as she had no pattern. Guess they just found a home. Then I met her husband who is the same age as me, but in much better shape. He goes to the Boundary Waters Canoe Area every year in northern Minnesota. My family has a cabin in that area and I used to spend my summers up there as a kid. Needless to say we hit it off. He used to work for the Moody Bible School and he worked for Jerry Jenkins. If you do not know who Jerry Jenkins is, well he was one of the authors of the Left Behind series. That was kind of an irony to me as my first year at the writer conference I attend I met the publisher of the series.
So as I prepare to leave on my trip I have to wonder where it is all going. Sort of, in my heart of hearts know, but having been technically dead twice already, that I also realize I could die before I get out of this chair. That is the way people tend to die in my family. My Grandpa was at our cabin in Minnesota, his favorite place on earth, and Grandma went to get him a cup of coffee. When she came back he was gone. Years later she was going to the grocery store with my aunt. Aunt Frances called her and got the car out of the garage. She pulled up in front of Grandma’s house across the street. After a few minutes waiting she went inside and Grandma was only the floor with her coat over her arm. My Dad was getting out of the shower and left to glory in the same outfit he got here in.
Does all this mean anything? Well it means I am looking up and appreciating every minute of life the Good Lord has blessed me with. Lately I have heard over and over people saying they think it is the end time. If you look at all the signs Jesus gave his last night on earth, we are definitely pretty close. One of the key ones was that it would be as it was in the time of Noah, the first few verses of Genesis 6, definitely sounds like this day and age. We also are constantly hearing of wars and rumors of wars. Yep!!! It might be time, or pretty close. After all he is coming sooner or later and my last few posts emphasize that we are standing at the gate.